Fear of That Final Nap.

NAP.

One of every mothers favorite words, nap. Ah, yes, those glorious few hours in the middle of the day that you get to yourself, those few hours of quiet, nothingness! So much you could do in those hours; clean, eat, shower, get dressed, oh my, you could even watch a show that doesn't have talking animals in it! How great is that, that wonderful nap time? So what happens when naps no longer exist? What then? Well, i'm not totally sure yet, but those days are approaching, and I mean FAST!

My twins, Aiden & Landon, turned 4 back in July. They're to that age where nap time isn't necessary, but is loved deeply by the mom! For the past few weeks, nap time has become UFC fight time in my house. Seriously, they're skilled. The second I leave the room, they're back at it. I've been at a complete loss on what to do! I've bribed them, "no power rangers unless you get some sleep," or "If you go to sleep we can go to the beach later!" Nothing has been working!!! Sometimes they finally give in and close their eyes and sleep for a bit, but man, the struggle is REAL! The time is coming, where nap (for my twins at least) is nearing an end, and I am not happy about it! 

For one, nap time is when I'm able to get ready! What will I do? Never shower? (Uhm, YUCK!) 

Never be able to put my face on, or get dressed? (Come on ladies, we all enjoy that sometimes no matter how much we whine about getting ready!) I don't want to shower at night, and somehow manage makeup and getting cute when they're all running around, (is that even possible to do?) But here soon, that is what I will have to do. Because nap my friends, is ending. 

The other day, they actually napped, went down easy, fell right asleep! It was joyous, and instantly i'm thinking, "oh thank god, silence, I CAN SHOWER!" Then I cracked open their door, saw them laying there, like the little angels they truly are, and I realized, there's so much more about nap that I am going to miss than just the "quiet" time it gives me to get things done. 

I'm going to miss my mid-day reassurance. My reminder not to freak out, they're still your little babies! My time to just gaze at them, in awe of their beauty and the love I have for them. I have a post about my belief on sleep, and that post really is felt for nap as well, and thats gone soon. It's saddening to me. I love walking in and seeing them laying there so comfortable, sometimes sprawled out in yoga positions that have yet to be created, but they're so comfortable, the world at ease and no worry in mind. It's calming really, reassuring that i'm doing an all right job here. They're so peaceful sleeping, and it brings peace to me seeing them sleep, and now that mid-day peace is about to end. They're growing up fast, and frankly, I don't appreciate it. What happened to those tiny babies that i'd want to go to sleep then they finally would and I'd want to wake them up just to see them open their eyes to me again? What happened to my little burrito babies that were all wrapped up in receiving blankets like little bundles of happiness? What happened to those wobbly head being held on by such a tiny little neck? What happened to my babies? Losing nap has become much more than losing my "shower time," I feel like i'm loosing my boys to the quickly approaching childhood, not infants, not toddlers, but children. Little boys with their own thoughts and personalities, their own sense of humor and hobbies, their own beings and place in this big 'ol world.
Mommy is scared, such a bittersweet moment.
Farewell nap, you will be missed. My boys will always be my babies in my mind and heart though.