Time.

Time flies by, I've always thought that, but more so when you have kids! 

Now you're not the one growing (hard to see how fast it flies when it's yourself) But you're watching these little humans, part of you, whom you made, grow at rapid speeds! 

Feels like just yesterday I kissed my twins for the first time on their tiny little cottage cheese looking covered faces, counted these tiny fingers and tiny toes, and singing little songs to them as I cradled them in my arms, in awe of how small they were, and how large my heart and love grew. 

Yet now, I'm kissing their lips with a kiss returned, they're helping me count their long fingers, and big toes, even counting mine, wiping their pb&j covered faces, and saying the pledge of allegiance each morning. 

Time has flown by without me even realizing it! Not only am I watching them, but my newest little guy as well! Is it possible to feel like I delivered them all, 3 years apart, yet all yesterday? Cause that's how I feel! 

Again, feels like just yesterday I delivered this tiny, almost 7lb baby, Tristan, he wrapped his little fingers around one of mine, smiled for the first time, giving him all the nourishment he needed from my own body, and I watched my husband hold this tiny, fragile, adorable little human in his arms. 

Now, he's crawling up to me, taking steps, laughing at my goofy faces, making his own, spoon feeding him these, goopy messy jars of yum, him picking up food on his own and eating it, then watching my husband fly him around the room like an airplane. 

Where did the time go? Where did my tiny, lengthy, swollen little men go? What happened to them? Why must they grow so quickly? 

It's amazing to watch them all grow, and I am one proud momma watching them learn and experience new things, but man do I wish, even just for a day, they would curl up in my arms, (without my back killing me from how heavy they are), open up their swollen little eyes, and give me that crooked, toothless, little first smile, all over again. I feel like I, and so many others, are always rushing to the next stage. "Can't wait until they walk!" "Can't wait until they talk!" "I can't wait until they play sports!"

 "I can't wait to see what hobbies they're interested in as teenagers!" 

What's the rush? This stage of their life, is only for now, and it will pass much faster than you could ever imagine! Live it up, you only get this day once, and can never get it back. 

I cannot believe how fast time is passing me by, it's wonderful, and yet heartbreaking at the same time. Bittersweet.

                     So, to show how fast time flies, here's some memories from before, and now!

I remember when the boys were just little babies, so small, so SKINNY! I'd have to sit there holding two bottles, one for each, and feed them. I remember their hilarious poop faces, and amazing facial expressions. They'd look at me, and I'd instantly feel like the most beautiful woman in the world, seeing them light up at the sight of ME. Amazing.

Now, they feed themselves, tell me what they want to eat. Every time I get done doing my makeup, they both will run to me saying, "Mommy you look pretty!" Or "mommy you're beautiful!" How amazing is that? Heartwarming to say the least! Everyday, after they wake up, they say one of two things, either "mommy, I WAKE UP!!!" Well, I'm so glad! Or "mommy look, the sun come back up its daytime!!!" Thank goodness for that! They are so alike, but wow, oh so very different!

Aiden, he is my mommas boy, always has been! Loves no one like he loves me! (Awesome right?!) such a cuddle bug when he wants to be, SO daring and adventurous, and wow, the imagination on this boy is PHENOMENAL! He's such a goof ball too! For instance, we tried feeding Tristan some of my Popsicle, and aiden says, "no mommy he has no teeth!" How cute is that? Or, trying to convince him to eat his broccoli, we told him eat it like the dinosaurs do it, and he says "mommy I not a dinosaur I am a peoples!" Hahaha, best response I've ever heard! That's only two examples off of the top of my head! He is such a character to say the least. Always something new! And such an amazing big brother! Always checking on Tristan, always loving on him and making him laugh, it's beautiful really.

And Landon, my brute! Such a guys guy, anything that involves violence, throwing, shooting, manly stuff, he's ALL IN! Surprisingly enough, he's not as daring though! New bug, loves looking, but don't you dare try and get him to touch it! Such a hard shell, but so soft and sweet on the inside! For instance, with Tristan, you wouldn't think he even NOTICES Tristan, never loving all over him, or anything of that sort, but man does he secretly love his baby brother. Anytime he's left alone in the room with Tristan, I hear whispering, so I always peak, and boy does what I see amaze me! Almost every single time he doesn't know I'm watching, he'll sit there and talk with him, play peekaboo, tickle, talk, and everything in between, but the second he sees I'm watching, he just smiles, and turns back into his cool tough self! Also, such a comedian! The second you laugh at something he does, he'll repeat it forever, feeds off of your attention, it's adorable! And his imagination, amazes me. Can tell you stories upon stories, you could make a tv series on the epic stories he tells!!!! "Mommy, you turn into a robot and protect me!" What!! Epic! Haha. I called him a cuddle bug once, and he responded, "I'm not a cuddle bug, I am a Landon kid!" How funny! He loves dancing, and always asks me to dance with him, I hope that never changes. Gosh, just such an amazing boy he is!

And my sweet little, chunky, Tristan! One day I was nursing and singing him songs, now he's already gaining his own personality! Such a ticklish little man he is, and boy, that laugh, can relinquish any stress i am feeling that day. He also, as young as he is, knows how to make me feel better! It's almost as if he knows, when I'm having a bad day, he'll be such a sweetheart, laughing randomly to cheer me up, crawling over to me and just smiling, he's such a sweet boy! I can't get enough of him!

All in all, time flies! Every moment is fleeting, and today is the day to cherish it, good or bad! Listen to your kids conversations, pull over to see the tractors, talk about whatever it is they want! Build Legos, watch a cartoon, cuddle, crawl with them, sing to them, just do it all. Cause everything they're doing right now, is going to change, and fast!